Category: articles

  • Shame won’t kill me

    Over the years, I have become very good at dodging work-related questions. The subject is a painful reminder that I am a big fat failure. I have struggled with work for the last 25 years. With my fear of failure even longer. Before exams or job interviews, I would get acute and extremely painful cramps.…

  • Making room for the new

        For the first time in three and a half years, I feel like myself again, up and running, ready for more. It feels good. In the past year, I’ve been preparing for this moment by purging our home, letting go of things that don’t serve us anymore, things that are part of a…

  • The voices in our head

        I just woke up with a pounding heart. I don’t want to publish the article I wrote yesterday, was the first thing that crossed my mind. The next thing I did was tell myself that I was just being nervous,  and  that of course I would publish it, there was no real reason…

  • Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

        With the vacation becoming a memory and things getting back to normal, stress levels are up again. Not steadily rising, but surging out of seemingly nowhere. I feel a strong resistance to get back to my life again, anger and sadness for being pushed back into a format that feels restrictive.  Although this…

  • Have a marvelous Summer

        It is Summer time, school holidays have started almost two weeks ago and I am home with my daughter. Last week, I did not write an article and this week the article I want to write is too complex to write between the scenes. So, I decided that I will start writing again…

  • Raise your words

          We are story weavers, we all weave stories. Two weeks ago, I asked ‘What is your story?’ and I wrote about the stories we weave together and how we can stop getting entangled in them, by recognizing they are stories and by not taking them personally. We don’t only weave stories about…

  • Metamorphosis

        The journey from caterpillar to butterfly is characterized by a radical transformation. In the in-between stage, the pupal stage, the caterpillar doesn’t gradually change into a butterfly. What happens is far more interesting, the caterpillar turns into a liquid, a quantum soup, if you will, and from that state of liquid potential a…

  • What is your story?

          I was talking to a friend recently who is going through a lot of the things I went through. He is more and more becoming aware of how the voice in his head is running the show and he is doing his best to come to terms with the havoc it has…

  • Walking the tightrope with ease

        Last week, I wrote about what distracts me when I’m walking this tightrope called life, feelings of lack, mostly lack of time and how I counter that. This week I want to write about what keeps me balanced most, what makes me walk this thin line with ease. I am balanced when I…

  • Regaining balance, creating time.

        Writing about balance was, as you may have figured, inspired by real-time events. I was feeling off. Now my ‘off’ isn’t what it used to be. My ‘off’ has shifted upwards like my feeling ‘good’ has shifted. I love feeling really, really good, there is nothing better, until of course my really, really…